Transgender
Funnyman Ian Harvie telling some jokes at The Improv. Ian is Margaret Cho’s opening act and has been seen on One Night Stand Up on Logo and Comics Unleashed on ABC.
A transgendered hate crime victim shares her story during a panel discussion at Georgia State University.
People like the ones she describe disgust me. But I’m glad she’s alright and is strong enough to talk about what happened.
CANDY 1
Song: I Want Candy by Aaron Carter
Stills from the magazine
+ Shooting by Brett Lloyd
Edited by Juanjo Martínez
Directed by Luis Venegas
Suggested by keraleda
![Jake, In Plaid, 2008
“Sometimes I feel very secure in my masculinity and my maleness and then I’m shocked when I look in the mirror and see a completely different version of myself than what I think I am. Other times I can feel very insecure about how my gender is being perceived by people and then I look in the mirror and I’m surprised by how masculine I actually am. I feel like having top surgery will eliminate a lot of these issues. I’m still very conscious of my chest. I’d also like to get a particular surgery for the bottom as well to make what I have look more masculine.
Many times I feel like my sense of dysphoria is directly related to how well I’m being accepted by people I’m sexually attracted to. If I’m really into a guy and he’s totally accepting of my body, I feel less pressure even though I’m still really self-conscious about the parts I don’t identify with. But if I come onto a guy and he rejects me because I’m trans I get really obsessive about wanting surgery. Sometimes it makes me hate being trans. I don’t feel like I need a penis, I just want what I have to not look female. In regards to genitalia, I sometimes think I would be happier with nothing rather than what I have now.
But sometimes I feel happy with what I have. Actually, I’m kind of proud of it. I like to walk around the house with my shirt off, even though I haven’t had top surgery. When I look at myself in the mirror I’m always amazed at how masculine my chest is even with breasts. My muscles are more defined now and I’ve developed a lot of body hair. Sometimes I want to show off my chest, but I think it would make…” [continued]
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Jake, In Plaid, 2008
“Sometimes I feel very secure in my masculinity and my maleness and then I’m shocked when I look in the mirror and see a completely different version of myself than what I think I am. Other times I can feel very insecure about how my gender is being perceived by people and then I look in the mirror and I’m surprised by how masculine I actually am. I feel like having top surgery will eliminate a lot of these issues. I’m still very conscious of my chest. I’d also like to get a particular surgery for the bottom as well to make what I have look more masculine.
Many times I feel like my sense of dysphoria is directly related to how well I’m being accepted by people I’m sexually attracted to. If I’m really into a guy and he’s totally accepting of my body, I feel less pressure even though I’m still really self-conscious about the parts I don’t identify with. But if I come onto a guy and he rejects me because I’m trans I get really obsessive about wanting surgery. Sometimes it makes me hate being trans. I don’t feel like I need a penis, I just want what I have to not look female. In regards to genitalia, I sometimes think I would be happier with nothing rather than what I have now.
But sometimes I feel happy with what I have. Actually, I’m kind of proud of it. I like to walk around the house with my shirt off, even though I haven’t had top surgery. When I look at myself in the mirror I’m always amazed at how masculine my chest is even with breasts. My muscles are more defined now and I’ve developed a lot of body hair. Sometimes I want to show off my chest, but I think it would make…” [continued]
Submitted by Gavin Y.
Allie, Earrings, 2008 VIA
“I used to feel like my body was the exact opposite of who I know I am inside. I had hard skin. My hair was short, kept in a crew cut by parents and dress codes. I had a flat chest. And I hated it. When puberty rolls around, most boys can’t wait to see the peach fuzz, and eagerly hit the gym, looking to get all muscley. Not me. I was hoping to see my penis shrink into my body, and to see the tiny little buds of breasts. I cried myself to sleep the first day I needed to shave. My body was committing treason against me. And yet, the girl in my head still hoped that her body would turn out right in the end. Society told me that I was wrong, that I was a freak, that I should suck it”
